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Writing Love Letters to Our Kids and Learning to Let Go

Published on: October 21, 2022

Woman sitting at a table writing a letter

Our oldest son, Nativ, recently left for college. The house is quieter, somehow a bit bigger now. As a friend once shared, “The nights are long, but the years are short.” I feel that acutely today.

I remember the day Nativ was born. The first words I said to him in this world were the priestly blessing, the same blessing we say to our kids every Friday night. I remember the sound of him struggling to breathe — like a car not able to start. He was whisked away to the NICU, leaving us alone to wait in confusion and fear.

The next time we saw Nativ, he was intubated with wires, tubes, and there was a little purple stuffed animal. It may have been a hippo … We still have it somewhere. He looked like fragility incarnate. Fragility with a tuft of dark brown hair.

At that time, his mother was a pediatric flight physician at UCLA, the hospital where Nativ was born. One of her colleagues ran the NICU, and he offered to stay outside of the delivery room, just in case. His name was Dr. Devaskar, and he probably saved Nativ’s life.

Thank God that Nativ recovered quickly. Most of the other newborns, sadly, did not recover quickly, if they recovered at all. We saw their parents spectrally coming and going, while the nurses and doctors — like divine messengers — showed tremendous compassion. I wonder where all of those kids are today. For a moment, their lives intersected and then went on their divergent paths.

It is hard to believe that today my son is one of the roughly three million college freshmen starting this new journey.

Before Nativ left for college, I suggested he write a letter to his future self that he can open when he graduates. Meanwhile, I am writing a letter to his current self — offering a few reflections that may help him on his way.

"Man with baby on his shoulders next to image of man with teenager on his shoulders, baby grown up"
Rabbi Will Berkovitz and son Nativ

If you have a young person who recently left your home on a similar journey, I recommend you do the same. It provides an opportunity to slow down, reflect and give honor to a significant liminal moment in our lives. It is a fitting thing to do during this holiday season of contemplation and accounting.

In the years to come my great hope is that Nativ:

… will learn to clarify his core values and accept his shadow values as well.

… will always test his assumptions and appreciate that the world is not black and white, but only shades of grey.

… will learn two opposing truths can exist and rest side by side. And that he can hold them both and learn to live with the contradiction.

It is why I hope he will get to know people with very different viewpoints, if only to clarify and expand his perspective. Just as people have different values, we hold different truths as well. He can own his truth without denying someone else theirs. And he should expect the same from others.

I want Nativ to believe in himself and follow his dreams. And to remember, as my father said to me, “In 20 years, that grade won’t matter nearly as much as the experiences, conversations and memories.”

I hope he will be intellectually and emotionally curious. And be vulnerable.

I want him to learn to hone and trust his instincts and to use them as a compass pointing to his true north; yet appreciate that life will always be more white-water rafting than synchronized swimming. We can’t control the river; we can only control how we respond to it.

I want him to challenge himself and to try new things; to take smart risks and some dumb ones as well, but learn from them all. As a mentor once said to me, “There is no comfort in the growth zone, and no growth in the comfort zone.” I hope that he will seek out mentors and learn from them.

I want him to understand that he can be simultaneously humble and confident, but always lean toward humility with other people’s emotions — to strive for humility.

Also, time, family and true friendship are the most precious things in life. I hope he always treats them that way.

Equally, I hope he comes to a fuller appreciation for the depth of wisdom within the Jewish tradition and how precious that legacy is. But like most things of value, fully coming to that appreciation takes dedication and effort.

And while the next years are for him, I hope he also finds ways to be of service to the people and community around him.

I suspect this letter may be more for me, but maybe when he is older he will look back on it with bittersweet nostalgia and find something of value to reflect on or share with his children when they leave for college. Maybe he will have a better understanding of my values, how I try to live my life and how foundational tradition is to us all.

Parenting, like so much of life, is one long lesson in letting go. And that is what many of us parents are doing now. Letting go.

And that is as it is meant to be.

Rabbi Will Berkovitz is the CEO of Jewish Family Service, a Seattle-based social services agency founded in 1892 that helps vulnerable individuals and families achieve well-being, health and stability.

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